Signs your still not over an ex….

So lately it has been an interesting time in my life. It has seemed like everyone that I have ever dated has been making random sexy appearances in my life. While doing so, they have flooded my mind back up to many memories that I have been trying to keep in the back of my head. So in retrospect I have come to the realization that I may not be fully done getting with Mr.Awesome over some. Most of the time for me the best way to get over someone is not to be around them at all, to delete there phone number, giving your friends that little pep talk about how your now exes name is like a curse upon there future children should not be mentioned in your presence anymore, unless they want to deal with the tear fest that will ensue. So I have come up with this handy list of ways to know that you are indeed not over that person.


1. If EVERYTIME you walk by one of the places you had a date at and you go awwwwwwwwww this is where                    took me

2. If your friends get tired of you telling them about the places so they subconsciously stop going near said places.

3. If you see them and you stop midsentence and just stare

4. If after that mid sentence pause you finally start talking only to not make sense to anyone around you, NOT even you.

5. If every time you read their name on a piece of paper you get a tingle that runs through your body

6.  You sometimes find yourself watching their favorite TV show even though you hate it

7. Every time you hear “their” song you listen and jam to it but you really got tired of it months ago

8. You still hate the thought of seeing them with other people

9. Every time you listen to a certain song, you always think of what they said after that song went off. “we definitely didn’t take it      , and         .” 

10. You find yourself wanting to see them and then when you do you wish you hadn’t

11. You find yourself ignoring every other man who has come around because they not going to treat you like “he” did

12. You find yourself finding other miniature versions of them

So I’m not a Dr or anything but I’m thinking if you said yes to at least three of these things that you are probably not over who ever your ex is. Really and truly though the only thing that is ever going to heal you is time and lots of it.  More to come I’m in a writing mood today. Next up: Does Age Really Matter



Today I have decided that I’m going to post some of my poetry hope you enjoy

The difference between black and blue

Is the gray matter that now lives between

Flourishing once into carnal delights

Now the time has come for overview

Your insight is muddled damaged at the least

Tattered are the chances to reconcile

Heartstrings are decapitated

Aimlessly frock licking with whatever opens

No understanding of the anguish you create

Passion enkindled but you found a way

To tear at it piece by piece until it was gone

Making a mockery of what was

No care for the souls you devour

With each curve of your lips hearts flutter

But to one like you, just another notch

Another chance to wet your head

Can one so beautiful be so callous

So condescending, so desensitized

Your heart and soul are colder than an arctic breeze

My mind plays tricks on me, I’m torn betwixt

Knowing you sets me afire one moment

And then drains my essence the next

Never has a human been able to cause such distress

Wanting you to stay close

Not ever wanting to be with out

Damaging my soul with each new day

Waiting for that one moment of realization

Where you will see that it was me all along

Stranding the darkness waiting for the light

Shattered is my conscience, story of a broken heart

Foundations have been built around you

Cracking with each new blow to its center

You walk all over it but still I stay

Biting my tongue at any hint of flaw

Covering up the damage that is you

Asking my self is this how you want me to be, torn

In LOVE with a man who doesn’t love you

Wanting to feel that touch if only for a millisecond

Destroying my frame each time we kiss

Sending me into heaven each time we make love

Forever I wait for the day

When my touch will be enough to take your pain away

With out you my stars disappear leaving my sky dark

But still I ask is this what I want, one sided love

Looking at our picture makes me heavyhearted

Untangling myself from you a little at a time

Will it always be this struggle to get you to see

I don’t know how much more I can take before I implode

I know what the difference between black and blue is…

Its you